Paralyzed with pain,
I feel so defeated,
I just can’t win,
a battle, depleted.
Too long it’s been,
of pain and strife.
A turmoil within,
many tears I’ve cried.
Anticipating the day,
of restored normalcy,
trapped in broken decay,
and ways of conformity.
Will gentle waves of time,
set me free,
and wash away, possibly sublime,
and finally let me be?
Copyright ©️ by: Jenny Frye. June 24, 2024. All rights reserved.
Mystical creatures,
Free spirited in nature,
coated in colorful features,
of iridescent layers.
Hummingbirds,
a symbol of resilience,
sits on its perch,
in brilliance.
Satisfied of sweet nectar,
here in a flash,
with a message to deliver,
of loved ones, passed.
An angel in disguise,
a spiritual significance,
tiny in size,
pure exquisiteness.
Copyright ©️ by: Jenny Frye. June 23, 2024. All rights reserved.
SEE!!! THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT!!!
And people still want to vote for our corrupted, heartless president!!! SMDH!!! 🤦♀️
How does this not anger Americans!!! I don’t get it! How can people sit back and still vote for a lazy, incompetent, and crude, president who won’t close down the border and stop these woman and children from being killed and tortured, along with prostituded out and put in sex trafficking and sex rings!!!
These woman and children could still be alive had Biden did what he should have done when he got elected for president and closed off the damn border!! These ruthless and evil immigrants are still roaming the streets, preying on vulnerable woman and children!! This angers me to the very core of my soul!!
I know that sounds a little extreme but for some, it takes a visual analogy to wake people up and make them see all this is very real and not just some fake news from the mainstream media! Look at what is happening in this world, a good majority of it is because of our president and all the corrupted democrats and politicians who refuse to do anything about it and just want to collect the $$$$$.
The corruption of our government and the crooked politicians of this world are driving this world into the ground, creating chaos destruction, hate and war. This world we live in is sadly divided by racism, strife, folly and sin.
It’s even more sad when our American Citizens are so blind and don’t see what’s really happening in front of their very eyes. When are we going to wake up and realize that our president and leaders of this world are making us look weak! Other countries are laughing at us and thinking we are a complete joke because our president stands before the whole entire world and can’t even say a competent sentence.
He can’t even find his way around the stage, when he talks, he goes completely off topic babbling about stuff that doesn’t even make sense and then stands there and laughs about it, he wonders off in a complete daze and doesn’t even know where he is half the time, he makes poor choices which leads to further damage to our economy and society. Also I must mention and point out, when Hawaii got destroyed by all those tragic fires; where was our president? Yes, that’s right, on vacation! It took him over a week to visit the victims of this sad tragedy!
THEN!!!….THEN!!!….Stood before these victims comparing his small kitchen fire and almost losing his corvette to thousands who lost their homes and loved ones!! WHAT!!! ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME!! That minor fire was NOTHING compared to what these poor Hawaiian victims painfully endured!!! THE NERVE!!! 🤬
NOW, do we really want an incompetent president for the next 4 years who has to have people telling him line for line what to say and how to address our American citizens, rising the cost of food, gas prices, causing hate and war, risking the lives of our American citizens? I sure as hell don’t! He has done nothing but drive this world into the ground by creating diversity and a divided nation, and has led our country into debt by implementing inflation because of all their poor and greedy, reckless spending.
To add to that, our president is allowing illegals over the border, supplying them with free housing, free education, free food, free healthcare but is oblivious to the fact that we have homeless veterans lining the streets that selflessly sacrificed their own lives to keep our world safe from wars and destruction! Pure heartlessness and selfishness! Not only that but these illegal immigrants are crossing the border, targeting vulnerable women and so far now two women if not more than that have been killed and now BREAKING NEWS!! Today a twelve year old child has been strangled and killed by these ruthless illegal criminals! THIS NEEDS TO BE PUT TO A STOP!!! CLOSE THE BORDER BIDEN!!!! AMERICA WAKE UP!!! LOOK WHAT IS HAPPENING!!!
Not to mention illegals who are crossing the border into our country and are bringing deadly diseases, that we have been trying to prevent for decades! Among many other things I will not mention. It’s down right FOLLY, evil and sinful!! Are you not seeing the tragic irony in all this!!?? If you can’t, I’m sorry, but you are among all those who are BLIND and refuse to see what’s really happening before your very eyes.
Written in response to: Word of The Day “Folly”
Sunflowers, strong and bold,
A Symbol of gratitude,
Drinking in sunlights gold,
in an hourly magnitude.
Shimmering with radiance,
in fields so green,
with such vibrance,
a sight so serene.
Written in response to: https://ceenphotography.com/flower-of-the-day-fotd-challenge/
Copyright ©️ by: Jenny Frye. June 22, 2024. All rights reserved.
By: Your tango
“Today, spend a little time cultivating relationships offline. Never forget that everybody isn’t on social media.” — Germany Kent
In a world that has gone almost all digital, today’s generation has access to a plethora of opportunities for connection through so many social media platforms. However, it’s crucial to step outside of ourselves and our addictions to social media and refocus our attention towards the people who truly matter in our lives, those who are standing before our very eyes. The ones who value and love us for who we are as individuals, rather than for what we can offer them.
Although social media can present an abundance of options, let’s trust that the right people will eventually cross our paths, the ones God has placed in our lives for his glory and our will. When they do, it is then when we will find our destined connections and the people who are meant to be in our lives, the ones who will love us for who we are, value us, and respect us as individuals and not just for what we can provide them.
Copyright ©️ by Jenny Frye. June 21, 2024. All rights reserved.
“To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides”, “Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own”, “Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies”
I catch you looking at me,
why do you hold back,
from fulfilling passionates glee?
What happened to the butt smacks?
What happened to the cuddles?
Where did our love go?
I miss the warm snuggles.
Why are you so shallow?
Am I not enough?
Do I not turn you on?
Can you not see how I am a rare diamond in the rough?
Shining bright as the sun at dawn.
All I want is your love,
and affection, is that too much to ask?
It seem as though, you’ve lost sight of,
This simple task.
With each passing day,
my heart grows weary.
I feel our love is drifting away.
becoming weak and dreary.
I miss you,
I miss us.
In addition to,
Passionate smooches.
I’ve tried talking to you,
I’ve tried telling you how I feel,
I don’t know what else to do.
But write this poem to help our marriage heal.
Copyright ©️ by: Jenny Frye. June 21, 2024. All rights reserved.
Depression, a bottomless hole,
reaches deep within the soul.
A hopeless feeling,
of constant weeping.
An endless battle,
wrapped in shackles.
Voiceless screams,
bursting at the seams.
Depressions gremlin,
feeds within.
A shadowy puppeteer,
stealing joy, with every tear.
Under this gremlins spell,
Can feel like hell.
But with resiliences potion,
The gremlins grip becomes broken.
Copyright ©️ by: Jenny Frye. June 20, 2024. All rights reserved.
By Nancy Virden (c)2024 Moods come and go, but depression is a complex mental disorder. Called a “mood disorder”, depression is not a healthy state …
I’m Here For You, And I’m Listening
“There lives at least one being who can never change-one being who would be content to devote his whole existence to your happiness-who lives but in your eyes-who breathes but in your smiles-who bears the heavy burden of life itself only for you.”
Azquotes
Charles Dickens
Trees standing tall and silent,
secrets heard,
From below, whispered in private,
No backlash, not a word.
A place she feels safe,
to open up,
To break,
On a comfortable tree stump.
Whispered secrets,
released in the wind,
solace she seeks,
within.
Only God’s power,
Can resolve.
And devour.
It’s not hers to solve.
Copyright ©️ by: Jenny Frye. June 19, 2024. All rights reserved.
This winding road of endless hopelessness has become an increasingly positive change of events, leading to a sign of Hope!
I know a lot of you have possibly seen a change in my writing and may be leaving you scratching your head 🤔 wondering out of curiosity what has changed.
Well for starters, I know some of you know how I have been suffering for quite some time with agonizing chronic pain that has left me cut off from society and being unable to live a normal life. My chronic pain has left me isolated and home bound, which those who suffer with chronic pain can attest to this and can sympathize with me.
Not only that but when a person such as myself suffers with 24/7 chronic pain, forced to be cut off from society, and resorts to a life of misery being home bound, it tends to take a toll on the mental state as well as the emotional state. We begin to lose hope and darkness which encompasses our thoughts and feelings and clouds our judgment in every day life.
Now, with that said I hope I have painted a visual image in your mind so you all know and understand where I am coming from. I will however inform you all that now that I have visited with my PCP regarding a resolve in my chronic back pain, hope is beginning to rise and I am beginning to see a light at the end of the tunnel. Currently, my doctor has me on steroids AKA a (zpack) to help bring down the inflammation and swelling in the lumbar section of my back.
And I am happy to report that I am noticing a slow reduction of pain and can sorta function a little better than I normally would. This is my second day with the (Zpack) and I hope to continue to feel less pain in the coming days. But wait! There is more! I will be having a CT scan done in the coming days as well, which will be sent to the pain specialist in which I am seeking to have an epidural done by him.
After the pain specialist reviews my CT Scan, they will call me for an initial consultation to determine what steps they need to take regarding my pain. And to see if I am a good fit to have an epidural done or if something more drastic needs to happen.
So like I said above, Hope is on the rise and I am anticipating the day I can go from a 24/7 Level 10 pain to possibly a Level 5 pain. And my mental health as well as my mental state will continue to improve as I won’t have to suffer in constant and agonizing pain like I have over the past several years.
If anyone is suffering in agonizing pain like myself, please know that there still is Hope. Don’t give up. Keep fighting! Keep trying! Find your light at the end of the tunnel. ✨✨
I have something a little different from my normal blogging routine. I hope you all enjoy these my pictures.
Here in Toto Land we have some very creative architects. These pictures below speak for themselves. I took these photos in 2017 at a place here in Kansas called, “Heavy Metal Restorations.”
If you would like to see the video I took, click on this link https://photos.app.goo.gl/KbGCAHTSJ7mv4ztZ8
I honestly had a great time seeing all the amazing talent, creatively constructed with metal. I was in complete awe.
Copyright ©️ by: Jenny Frye. June 19, 2024. All rights reserved.
Riding on waves of vibes,
on ocean tides.
Feelings immerse,
a poets verse.
Poems of triumph,
a testament of will.
Buried in grains,
of ocean sands, remains.
A discovery to be found,
among a face in the crowd.
Grounds for hope,
in this celestial globe.
Copyright ©️ by: Jenny Frye. June 19, 2024. All rights reserved.
Isn’t it funny how around this same exact time, last year, I am riding this same exact vibe again. 🤔 Especially that last part, “When no one can see that you are depressed you just want to yell to the world that you’re upset.”
Many times I have wanted to shout what I have been feeling so I can finally just let go and release it. But something inside of me remembers how I have lost too many friends and family because I was “too much for them.” Or I was “burdening them.” So of course we all know when that happens what people resort to. If you said, they tend to keep their inner pain and suffering to themselves, then you are absolutely correct.
Is it healthy? Absolutely not. I know from past experiences, how it can take a mental toll on a person’s mental health or state of mind. However, that’s why I am grateful and thankful for this most amazing, friendly, and supportive community of bloggers. It’s my escape, it’s my go to, it’s my outlet where I can come and feel safe and comfortable sharing my inner pain without judgement or criticism.
It’s almost as if stepping into a coffee shop having a delicious cup of Joe with all my friends, while sharing the depths of my pain that reside within me and not having the slightest fear of being judged or criticized. But let’s not forget all the wonderful laughs and inspirational moments we have along the way, sharing beautiful memories.
I said that because after writing that second to last paragraph, that visualization sprung to my mind.
Every morning after waking up, is like stepping into a virtual coffee shop where I know all my friends, and fellow bloggers will be sitting blogging away on their laptops or phones, inspiring the world with their fantastic stories, poems, blogs, articles, beautiful pictures of everything from flowers to beautiful landscapes.
After grabbing myself a hot cup of coffee the first thing I do is check on my WP friends to see what new thing I will learn or see, reply to comments, and sometimes even write a post or two. Although some mornings are a little more difficult than others due to waking up in agonizing pain and not being able to move or function.
Oooops, sorry I got a little side tracked, now I’m rambling. lol 😂 Anyways, the point I was trying to originally make was despite the days of wanting to scream to the world about my inner sufferings as well as physical sufferings, I know I have a safe and secure place to lash out, pour my feelings out, express exactly what is on my mind without the slightest fear or worry of backlash or harsh judgment or criticism. You All are a huge Blessing!!! ❤️💙🦋
Once they face their demons head on, it is only then that you will see a change in their behavior. (Key Point) Don’t try to change them! That is your first mistake! If you have spent exhausting minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, and even years trying to change someone, you are wasting your valuable time when you could be doing so much more with your time.
This will only leave you mentally and emotionally exhausted. No one can change them. Let this be a valuable lesson! They have to be the ones willing to put forth the effort to change their behavior. NO ONE CAN DO IT FOR THEM!!
*IF THEY LOVE YOU ENOUGH, AND THEY ARE WILLING TO PUT FORTH A CONSISTENT EFFORT TO CHANGE, THEN OVERTIME YOU WILL SEE A NEW PROFOUND OPPORTUNITY FOR GROWTH AND DEVELOPMENT IN YOUR RELATIONSHIP OR FRIENDSHIP.
BUT…..
*IF THEY AREN’T WILLING TO PUT FORTH THE CONSISTENT EFFORT TO CHANGE FOR THE SAKE OF YOUR RELATIONSHIP OR FRIENDSHIP, TO MAKE THINGS BETTER AND YOU KEEP SEEING THE SAME TOXIC CYCLE OF PATTERNS, THEN SIS, ITS TIME TO CUT TIES AND SAY BUUUH BYYYY, KICK ROCKS!! NO ONE NEEDS A SLEW OF TOXICITY IN THIER LIFE!!
BOX IT UP=PACK IT UP=SHIP IT OUT!
A cascading night sky, casts an oracle of the northern lights
A mystical dance of colors that ignites
A symphony of shimmering hues
A celestial display that never ceases to amuse.
Aurora borealis, a magical sight
Painting the darkness with pure delight
Whispers of wonder in the starlit sky
Mysteries of the universe passing by.
Luminous ribbons of green and pink
Creating a canvas that makes you think
Of the beauty and power of nature’s art
Captivating the soul and warming the heart.
In the night sky, a celestial show
A reminder of the wonders we don’t always know
A dance of light in the darkness above
A symbol of hope, peace, and love.
Copyright ©️ by: Jenny Frye. June 18, 2024. All rights reserved
True love cannot be found where it does not exist, nor can it be denied where it does.
Brainyquote
Torquato Tasso
Petals of flowers,
He loves me, he loves me not,
My heart skips a beat,
His love is all I seek,
Falling like petals to the ground.
Belladonnas Flashlight asks; Please share with us how you get through things that hurt you, using as many words as necessary.
Written in response to: http://Six Words Is All I GOT Bad memories erased because of prayer! http://belladonnasflashlight.com/2024/06/17/six-words-is-all-i-got-22/
My take on this question:
Hurt me not,
For I refuse to rot.
I stand strong,
a force, in my song.
A blog, my sea,
of peace.
words sail,
upon oceans blue.
Feelings released,
as far as the east.
Words of hurt,
immersed.
Each wave, a song of,
unfailing love.
A peaceful solidarity,
promises of clarity.
Belladonnas Flashlight: Your blog post inspired me to write this poem. I hope you enjoy it. 💕🤗
“Only great pain, the long, slow pain that takes its time…compels us to descend to our ultimate depths…I doubt that such pain makes us “better;” but I know it makes us more profound;” This quote is attributed to: Friedrich Nietzsche
Goodreads quotes
In a world where there is disease and pain, there are many different levels of pain a person can experience, let alone handle. There is mild pain which means the pain is can be a nagging pain which is considered annoying but it’s not really anything too significant to interfere with daily activities or daily living.
Then you have “moderate pain,” which means it can be a negative distraction during any type of physical activity. It’s tolerable but it can’t be ignored for longer than a certain period of time.
The third type or level of pain a person experiences is called “Severe pain.” Severe pain can be the worst type or level of pain a person can experience. “Severe pain,” is a feeling of great discomfort or intensity that makes it extremely difficult to perform activities or even function in daily life. Even so much so, it can interfere with socialization and going out with family or friends. Which in turn confides a person to their home leaving them feeling cut off from the world, as well as isolated.
Here are different levels of pain intensity and what each one means:
Pain that takes over our senses and limits our daily living, activities, and socializing with family and friends outside our homes.
Intense pain that severely impacts and interrupts our ability to socialize and perform daily activities and tasks.
Excruciating and immense pain that can affect speaking and can cause us to disengage from communication and conversation, replaced with uncontrollable moaning and crying in pain.
Unspeakable and the ultimate worse kind of pain there is on a level scale. This level can and will cause a person to become bedridden. Not only that but, a person’s pain can become overwhelmingly severe, they may even experience hallucinations due to their body not being able to cope with the pain, without intervention.
Now, with that said, no one human experiences pain in the same exact way you do. Nor does anyone who isn’t experiencing your same pain have any right whatsoever to dismiss your pain as anything less than what it is. Your pain is just as important as anyone else’s pain. It’s not a competition. No one person is in more or less pain than you. Take for instance a cancer patient, would you tell a cancer patient to, “suck it up” and “deal with it?” NO! Absolutely not!
Then how is anyone else’s pain any less important? I also must mention that we all heal in different ways. Some heal quicker than others and some take longer than others to heal due having an autoimmune condition/disease or some form of underlying disease preventing them from healing.
Take for example someone like myself who suffers with Level 10 pain on a daily basis. The worst and most significant kind of pain there is. It affects every aspect of my life, including doing something as simple as walking, going to the bathroom, getting dressed, taking a shower, grocery shopping, etc. I have to depend on my husband and kids to help me, which hurts my character and makes me feel so small.
I am the type of person who does not handle pain very well at all. My body has a very low tolerance for pain. I will inform you that I have absolutely no control over that. Can I take pain medications? Yes, absolutely but those are only enough to take the edge off but doesn’t remove all the pain. So don’t you dare sit there and tell me “it’s mind over matter!” I’m here to tell you, THAT IS BS!!
When a person such as myself who suffers with not only Chronic Pain, but Degenerative Disc Disease, (Collapsed Stage), Lumbar Spinal Stenosis, as well as underlying diseases, it’s extremely difficult for my body to heal. Let alone function properly. I have lost all the tissue and cartilage in between my vertebrae’s. The bones in back are constantly rubbing together, which creates friction, and inflammation. Overtime, when the bones are constantly rubbing together it causes erosion. What does that come with? LEVEL 10 Pain!
If I were able to “heal” my body with my mind as well as exercise, yoga, and meditation and replace lost tissue and cartilage in between my vertebrae’s, and automatically be completely out of pain and completely healed, IT WOULD BE A DAMN MIRACLE!!
Some things like exercise, yoga, and meditation is NOT the answer to everything! Yes granted, it could help stimulate the mind and help improve our mood and keep us from getting depressed, as well as improve our mental health and strengthen our muscles. But it is by NO MEANS a physical miracle to heal a body that has already sustained permanent damage.
Degenerative Disc Disease and Spinal Stenosis is a permanent condition and disease, it’s irreversible! Although some doctors may say by surgically altering the discs in the spine may help prolong life and reduce pain, but like I said before, not every human body is going to heal in the same way. Many people who have had spinal surgery are still in remarkable pain despite surgical intervention.
For those of you who do not know what Degenerative Disc Disease and Spinal Stenosis is, read below.
At this stage, the spinal discs undergo irreversible degeneration. To address spine issues, invasive surgery is the only solution available. During the collapsing stage, mobility is significantly compromised.
The fusion of the bones in the spine occurs as a result of the pressure exerted by the spinal column. This fusion is a result of the absence of spinal discs that normally separate the bones in the spine. As the bones fuse, it leads to decreased mobility across various areas of the spine.
You might find it difficult to rotate your body or maintain an upright posture. Additionally, you may experience continuous back pain. At this point, the spinal discomfort will intensify as a result of persistent inflammation and stress on the bones.
Those who reach the collapsing stage often face challenges in leading regular lives. They might find themselves restricted to a wheelchair or confined to bed due to limited mobility and intense pain. Given the seriousness of the collapsing stage, it is crucial to address degenerative disc disease well before it reaches this point.
You will then avoid the consequences of this stage of the disease. You can also avoid more intensive treatments such as surgery.
Source of my information: https://painandspinespecialists.com/what-are-the-stages-of-degenerative-disc-disease/
Spinal stenosis happens when the bony openings (foramina) in the spine start to narrow, reducing the space for nerves. This narrowing can take place in the spinal canal (where the spinal cord is located) and/or in the intervertebral foramina where spinal nerves exit the spinal canal. The compression of a spinal nerve or spinal cord due to this narrowing can lead to pain, tingling, numbness, and weakness, depending on the extent of narrowing and the affected area. To read more about spinal stenosis visit: https://www.spine-health.com/conditions/spinal-stenosis/what-spinal-stenosis
So in conclusion, if you are suffering with constant agonizing pain, just know you are not alone. I get how hopeless you may feel, how discouraged you may feel, how life can feel impossible and lonely. I have had many days where I felt I couldn’t go on, where all I wanted to do was just give up because this pain has been too significant I felt I couldn’t take one more day of it but I have stayed resilient and have tried everything remotely possible to help keep myself going through this storm. I have traveled down many paths to find solution after solution, some with a promise of hope and others not so much.
But I’m here to tell you, DO NOT GIVE UP!!! And DO NOT ALLOW ANYONE TO DIMINISH OR DISMISS YOUR LEVEL OF PAIN!!! YOUR PAIN MATTERS NO MATTER HOW BIG OR SMALL!!
Popular Sleep Quotes
“Let her sleep, for when she wakes, she will shake the world.”
Napoleon Bonaparte, French Military Leader
As the moon rises high in the night sky,
And the stars twinkle with a gentle sigh,
I lay my head down to rest and keep,
drifting away into the land of sleep.
My mind begins to wander and roam,
Through fields of dreams, I freely roam,
visiting places I’ve never seen,
in the realm of sleep, I am a queen.
The worries of the day slowly fade,
as I find solace in the dreams I made.
My spirit is light, a tranquil heart,
a peaceful embrace, where the healing starts.
So let me drift off into the night,
where dreams are vivid, and healing takes plight.
In the quiet stillness of the night,
I find my peace in sweet sleeps, delight.
Written in response to: https://weeklyprompts.com/2024/06/15/weekly-prompts-weekend-challenge-sleep/
Copyright ©️ by Jenny Frye. June 15, 2024. All rights reserved.
I remember being able to get up without making sound effects…good times – Anonymous
Hopelessness, emotions high,
I beg the question, why?
What’s the purpose of this pain?
God, answer me, explain!
I’m losing hope,
my faith is dwindling.
darkness has awoken,
this pain is crippling.
God, please set me free,
I’m tired of suffering.
I’m begging you, on bended knee.
Where is your healing, offering?
Copyright ©️ by: Jenny Frye. June 15, 2024. All rights reserved.
I am going to go ahead and apologize now to make you all aware that this will be my only post today due to being in excruciating pain.
From the time I woke up this morning up until now, I have been in agonizing pain, despite every effort of relieving the pain. My home health nurse made a visit today and I informed her that my chronic back pain is getting worse and everything I have tried to alleviate the pain, has failed.
My home health nurse was very understanding, and compassionate, as well as extremely supportive. When a person such as myself suffers with agonizing pain every second of every day, it tends to take a toll on the mind and affects mental health. Not only that but I have been feeling confined strictly to my home and the only socialization I get, is here on WordPress. So it can feel quite lonely and isolating.
So the visit with my home health nurse was quite refreshing, I felt heard and seen. As the visit went on, I felt as if, finally someone gets it, someone knows my suffering. Those of you who suffer in constant and agonizing pain every day, I’m sure can relate to my situation. You want more than anything to live a life without being in pain, you want to be heard and seen, as well as have someone show empathy and compassion.
Hopefully, after my home health nurse passes her notes onto my PCP as well as my insurance, I’m hoping and praying my PCP and insurance will find a solution that’s right for me. All I want is to live again, to live a life pain free or at least in less pain to where I can physically function and walk, not having to worry about sitting down every few minutes. I want to be able to go grocery shopping without being in pain, play with my granddaughter, clean my house, do laundry. You know, normal everyday things.
I want to feel useful, not useless. I want and need to feel like I am doing something to contribute for my family. I just want to feel normal again. As it stands now, I feel completely useless, although my husband tells me I’m not. I use to be a happy and energetic person who loved life, but this chronic pain leaves me absolutely miserable and I feel like all I am is a cripple who doesn’t have a life and can barely walk.
For those of you who suffer from any type of chronic pain and disease, please remember you are not alone. There is someone out there who is also suffering. If you feel hesitant to reach out for support and need someone to talk to, please don’t hold back. Everyone suffers in one way or another, you don’t have to face it alone. You deserve to feel heard and seen. You matter, your pain matters, you are loved, you are worthy!
https://www.southernliving.com/culture/nature-quotes#toc-short-nature-quotes
“There is no Wi-Fi in the forest, but I promise you will find a better connection.” –Ralph Smart
Wordless Wednesday is a simple blog post featuring a photo that conveys a message that speaks for itself without using words.
Linking up with sandee at comedy plus wordless wednesday
Create Love; Not Hate. - Restore Peace in Humanity
Written in response to: https://lindaghill.com/category/one-liner-wednesday/
Copyright ©️ by: Jenny Frye. June 12, 2024 – All rights reserved.
Peace lies in fields of green,
A succulent place, serene.
Stress melts away,
as trees sway.
As the fiery sun sets,
Darkness is met,
with eyes open,
senses awoken.
Moonlight dances,
upon the swaying branches,
Warm summer air,
felt upon skin, bare.
Dazzling stars,
ingrained in memoirs.
Wishes spoken,
for a second, time frozen.
Copyright ©️ by JennyFrye. June 11, 2024. All rights reserved.
If humans had taglines, what would yours be?
“Abuse is never deserved, it is an exploitation of innocence and physical disadvantage, which is perceived as an opportunity by the abuser.” – Lorraine Nilon, Breaking Free From the Chains of Silence
Why did I choose this tagline? Keep reading…
Here’s a small insight in the Back story to my tagline:
From the time I was 6 years old until I was 19 years old, I suffered horribly from people who were supposed to be the ones to protect me, love me, guide me, give me the tools needed for adulthood. But unfortunately, that wasn’t the case.
March 15, 1981 is the day I was born into this world, to a mother who had already decided my fate, long before I was born. My biological mother and biological father didn’t want me from the get go. They gave me to a family who they thought would be better for me than they could provide. But they were sorely mistaken, their judgement was clouded by their alcoholism.
At just two years old, I was adopted by my half sister and her husband, who I would grow up calling “mom.” and “dad.” I was the only girl out of four boys, who I would grow up calling, “my brothers.” From the time I was six years old is how far back my memory will allow me to remember certain events. Normally, people who can remember that far back, remember good childhood memories and can recall how happy of a child they were, friends they had, even schools they attended.
Most people were blessed with a happy, care free childhood with parents who wanted them, loved them, cared for them, accepted them, made them feel safe, and protected them at all costs. But sadly, that wasn’t the case with my childhood.
I was my adoptive parent’s punching bag when they were having a bad day; mainly from my adoptive father. Blow after blow felt like some horrible nightmare. Not only was I his punching bag but, I was also my adoptive father’s play toy, a sexual fantasy that he would so grossly abuse and manipulate. A toy he would take advantage of without any conscious thought, nor a shred of guilt.
As a child at the very young and innocent age of six years old, I had little control over this monstrous beast and his sick and twisted demise. I was trapped, frozen in fear, with no escape, nowhere to run, feeling so alone. Fighting to break free only made the situation more intense, the more I fought, the harder he would restrain me. The screams weren’t enough to alert the neighbors, nor loud enough to sway him from his relentless pursuit to achieve his sick, demented fantasy.
As I grew up and was old enough to understand and process all the inhumane things that were so cruelly done to me as a child, I never would have imagined I would be a victim of sexual, and physical assault. The mental, emotional, and verbal abuse that came along with it, wasn’t any better.
My childhood was filled with constant fear, mental and emotional pain, anxiety, and depression. I have very little happy memories of my childhood, and times I felt safe. I wish I could sit here and say I had the greatest and happiest childhood, because I know that’s what people in today’s society would want to hear.
But in life, that’s not always the case, by telling my story and getting my story out there, who knows, my story could touch someone and inspire someone who’s also suffered from child abuse. Or who knows, maybe someone who is currently suffering with any type of abuse will gain the courage to step forward and speak out.
Now, with that said, now that you know a little about my back story you can understand a little about why I chose my tagline:
“I’ve had no choice but to be strong.”
To read more of my story, click on the link below and it will take you to my autobiography I’ve been writing since 2018.
“The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existing. One cannot help but be in awe when he contemplates the mysteries of eternity, of life, of the marvelous structure of reality.” – Albert Einstein
Albert Einstein made this statement in the Life Magazine on May 2, 1955.
Did you know that research shows that people who are inquisitive or curious about the mysteries of life and everything in it, aids in brain development as well as achievement in life? It helps reduce anxiety and increases positive emotions.
Yeah, I didn’t either.
Everyday, things in life changes, our world is moving at such a fast pace, it’s difficult to keep up. As the saying goes, “you learn something new everyday.” This world is so big with voluptuous mysteries that have yet to be discovered and unraveled. We could spend our whole lives learning new things and everything in this life that the world has to offer. We will never stop learning about the mysteries, eternity, and the structures of this world and life.
With that said, if you are a very curious and inquisitive person like me, please don’t stop asking questions. And don’t you dare allow anyone to tell you, you are annoying or that you ask too many questions. It’s perfectly normal and more than okay to expand your knowledge about the virtues and mysteries of life.
Those people who make you feel small and ignorant just because you ask a lot of questions and are curious about the mysteries in life, are insecure about their own knowledge in life and have no ambition or drive to learn new things.
You are your own person, you have your own way of learning new things. You have every right to think outside of the box. Keep being you and keep asking questions! If one person you ask can’t answer your questions, don’t give up. Keep asking questions until you get the answers you need. It’s all part of being a curious and inquisitive human being.
Curiosity is intelligence having fun – Albert Einstein
“The two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you find out why.” – Mark Twain
Getting lost only to find yourself, will
lead you down paths, not yet tread,
Through valleys deep, mountains high, until
you discover the strength within you, spread.
To soar above doubts and fears,
that once held you back, will free you to fly,
to chase your dreams, wipe away tears.
Embrace the unknown, reach for the sky.
Stop being afraid to lose your way.
In darkness you will find the light,
that guides you to a brighter day,
and will help you shine, bold and bright.
Written in response to: Reena’s Xploration Challenge #334
Copyright ©️ by: Jenny Frye June 7, 2024 All rights reserved.
“Toto, I’ve a feeling we’re not in Kansas anymore”
We live in a world, divided,
A world of hate and war,
Too many corrupt politicians, two sided.
We live in dark times,
Our Veterans are lining the streets,
Homeless and poor, shaking a cup for dimes,
Hoping to earn enough, just to eat.
We are a world at war,
filled with hate and greed,
and lack of rapport.
Peace needs to intercede.
Written in response to https://dversepoets.com/2024/06/06/dverse-oln-363-show-me-the-movies/
“Toto, I’ve a feeling we are not in Kansas anymore” – From the Wizard of Oz (1939)
“It ain’t about how hard you hit. It’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward.” – Rocky Balboa
Strength is all I’ve ever known,
I’ve had no choice but to be strong.
Battle after battle, resilience I have shown,
Dark paths I have walked along.
Each dark path traveled, trials came,
Some knocked me flat on my face,
While others, a head hung in shame,
But each battle fought, I fought with grace.
Through weakness, comes strength,
With strength, comes resilience,
trials will come in wavelengths,
Some will be down right hideous.
You win some, you lose some,
The ones lost, lose with humility,
The ones won, beat your own drum.
Never give up, embrace your survivability.
Written in response to: https://thesoundofonehandtyping.com/2024/06/04/writers-workshop-prompts-for-june-6/
A birds song, a personal serenade
harmonized and in symphony
heard through the window shade
A timeless rhythm, was her epiphany.
Natures artistry,
a healing melody,
A souls remedy,
Fortitude in life’s adversities.
Copyright ©️ by Jenny Frye June 5, 2024 All rights reserved
“I like this place and could willingly waste my time in it.” – William Shakespeare
Wordless Wednesday is a simple blog post featuring a photo that conveys a message that speaks for itself without using words.
Linking up with sandee at comedy plus wordless Wednesdays
Watching the storms outside raging,
Rain and thunder collide,
Heavy winds blowing, lightning blazing,
I see on the outside what I feel on the inside.
A raging storm within me,
A song I could sing.
Natures fury,
Sing to me your glory.
Carry me out to sea,
I long to be free.
Comfort me in your song,
Where I can feel I belong.
Shades of blue,
In fields of bloom.
Nature in it’s making,
A moment worth taking.
Splashes of magnificent hues
of purple, yellow and blue.
Heaven under our feet,
Where peace can be reached.
Written in response to: Moonwashed Weekly Prompt – Shades of Blue
Copyright ©️ by: Jenny Frye. June 4, 2024 All rights reserved.
Born a miracle,
God’s beautiful pinnacle.
Eyes sparkle and shine,
Precious life, so divine.
What do I see?
A precious life, meant to be.
A life of grace and light,
who shines vivaciously bright.
(A note for those of you don’t know the back story of my daughter being born a miracle.)
*My daughter Ashleigh , shown in these pictures above, survived all odds shortly after being born. Hours after my daughter was born, death came knocking on her door. She was born premature and her lungs weren’t fully developed and while in the N.I.C.U., her health rapidly declined.
She was hooked up to all sorts of machines, including a feeding tube. She was also severely jaundiced. The N.I.C.U. doctor told us she wasn’t going to survive. Her lungs were too underdeveloped. She was clinging to life just days after being born.
Our pastor Rick Harms was by her bedside day and night praying for her. Our church, family, friends, and my husband and I were also praying for a miracle.
Miraculously, God heard our cries and blessed my daughter with life. Her lungs began to improve, her breathing began to improve, the blue light from the machine she was in began to heal her jaundice. Come May 31, 2003, she was discharged with a clean bill of health and we got to take her home, but with some caution rules. So it’s not just love that’s a miracle. My daughter being blessed with life.
However, throughout the years, there were many doctor and er visits. Due to her being born premature, her immune system wasn’t very strong, she got sick, A Lot. She was on a round of many medications and special formula.
Here it is 21 years later and she is a healthy beautiful woman and great mother.
Written in response to: https://lifeafter50forwomen.com/2024/06/03/what-do-you-see-241-3rd-june-2024/
How is one supposed to live a life of purpose when all your life is filled with is constant around the clock, agonizing chronic pain!?
Suffering with constant around the clock chronic pain has affected every aspect of my life, in more ways than one. How?
Allow me to explain:
Living a life filled with constant chronic pain is a very difficult challenge like no other. It feels as though every aspect of my life is being controlled by this unrelenting force, leaving me feeling helpless and defeated. How is one supposed to find purpose in life when all you can focus on is the pain that never seems to go away?
For me, the effects of chronic pain have been far-reaching. Not only does it impact me physically, but it also takes a toll on my mental health. The constant agony I experience on a daily basis leaves me feeling drained and unable to fully engage with the world around me. It’s discouraging to find joy in simple tasks when every movement is met with excruciating pain.
The loss of mobility that comes with chronic pain is perhaps the most devastating aspect of it all. Being unable to do the things that once brought me so much joy and fulfillment is a constant reminder of the limitations that this pain imposes on my life. It’s easy to feel isolated and alone when I’m stuck in bed while the world continues to move forward without me.
As the days turn into weeks and the weeks turn into months, and months turn into years, the mental toll of chronic pain becomes increasingly apparent. Depression, anxiety, and a sense of hopelessness has quickly taken hold, making it even more challenging to see a way out of the darkness that pain brings. It’s a vicious cycle that can feel impossible to break free from.
So, how is one supposed to find purpose in life when all they can feel is agonizing pain? It’s a question that I grapple with every day. But despite the challenges that chronic pain presents, I believe that there is still hope for a fulfilling life. It may require a shift in perspective and a willingness to adapt to new limitations, but it is possible to find moments of joy and purpose even in the midst of pain.
Finding purpose in a life filled with chronic pain may involve redefining what success looks like for those of you who suffer with chronic pain. It may mean finding new hobbies or activities that can be done within your physical limitations. It may also involve seeking support from loved ones or mental health professionals to help cope with the emotional toll of pain.
While chronic pain may never fully go away, it doesn’t have to define who you are or what you’re capable of achieving. By finding ways to adapt and thrive in spite of chronic pain, it is possible to live a life of purpose and fulfillment. It may not be easy, but it is worth fighting for.
Your three words today are:
SEETHE
BUBBLE
FROTH
I could feel the heat in my face intensify, a simmering anger began to seethe within me, bubbling up like a boiling pot of water. The tension in the room was noticeable, the atmosphere was so thick, I could cut it with a knife.
I could feel the frustration and pent up emotions growing between the both of us. It was only a matter of time before the bubble of restraint burst, unleashing a froth of heated words and raw emotions, I would later regret.
The room seemed to crackle with intensity of the moment, each breath feeling heavier than the last. It was a powerful ticking bomb ready to explode, and there was no telling what might happen once it did.
Written in response to #3TC:
Copyright ©️ by: Jenny Frye. June 3, 2024. All rights reserved.
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Our words this week are:
clicking, whimsical, leap, poetry, songs, be, whirring, dangling, fates, talk, grant, storm
In the whirl of fate’s storm,
Songs of poetry clicking and whirring,
Dangling on whimsical threads,
As we leap into the unknown,
Granting wishes with each word spoken.
Let’s talk of dreams and desires,
Let our imaginations be free,
To dance and sing with joy,
In this enchanting world of poetry.
I know a lot of you have noticed my writing language has changed within the last few days and may leave you scratching your heads wondering, what has gotten into that woman. 🤔
Well, a simple answer to that would be,
LIFE!…
Life has me spinning 😵💫 in circles, which is causing my mental and emotional health to be in a downward slope.
But I’m here to tell you, I’m not going to apologize for my erratic behavior. Everyone has their good days and bad days. The last few days just happen to be my bad days. Well, if you don’t count my car breaking down last week.
I don’t always have to be strong all the time. This is me, being my authentic self. Not that I haven’t always been, but it seems as though people in my life expect me to be able to keep it all together, all the time. No. It doesn’t work that way. I am human and I have feelings just like everyone else. I am allowed to vent, to be sad, and to be angry.
That’s what makes me human. I’m not some programmed robot who doesn’t have feelings. I’m very much, one hundred percent human, who has real feelings and emotions. Life isn’t all sunshine and rainbows, storms move in when we least expect them. But, with time, I will bounce back, and I will eventually be okay.
I’m not okay,
The weight on my chest,
Crushing me down,
I can’t catch my breath.
I’m not okay,
nothing to numb the pain,
my heart aches,
with unending pain.
I’m not okay,
But I’ll keep fighting,
I won’t give up,
I’ll keep writing.
I’m not okay,
But that’s okay,
I’ll find my way,
To a brighter day.
“The most terrible poverty is loneliness and the feeling of being unloved.” —Mother Teresa
Too many words have been spoken,
time and energy wasted.
Promises broken,
lovelessness, tasted.
This silence feels like a heavy shroud,
a quietness that speaks louder than any crowd.
In my sleep, I find a fragile peace,
a chance for my weary soul to finally release.
A new day approaches, sorrow lingers,
My heart, bruised and blistered.
I can’t continue to live like this,
Can’t you see, something’s amiss?
Our love has grown cold,
I question what our future beholds.
Silence only delays the inevitable,
Leaving this marriage, questionable.
–Since you clearly don’t care enough to read my poems anymore, I guess you will never know how I feel.
Copyright ©️ by: Jenny Frye. June 1, 2024. All rights reserved.
Why must we show our pain in ways others can see,
When the true depths of our suffering lies on our sleeve,
Why must blood be spilled, scars be shown,
For own pain to be acknowledged, known.
I don’t believe the world should wait,
For us to hurt ourselves to demonstrate.
The battles we fight, the demons we face,
It shouldn’t have to leave a physical trace.
My pain, your pain, is real, whether it’s seen or not,
It doesn’t need validation through a blood clot,
Let’s break the cycle, set ourselves free,
From the expectations to wear our pain visibly.
We must speak our truth, share our stories,
Without the need for external glories,
Let’s support each other, listen within,
Before the wounds are open, before the skin is thin.
Menopause, a time for change and transition,
when hormones rage and emotions may be in submission.
Hot flashes and mood swings, oh what a ride,
But through it all, we must continue to strive.
Our bodies may shift, our minds may wonder,
But we are still strong, no need to squander.
This is a new chapter, a time of growth,
Embracing our wisdom, that comes with both.
So let us celebrate this season of life,
by navigating the challenges with grace and strife.
We are women, fierce and bold,
Embracing menopause, as we get old.
Food, we need it survive,
nutritionally thrive.
But food is outrageously priced,
quickly burns holes in our pockets.
Junk food goes to our waists,
Healthy food, too expensive,
It’s a disgrace.
We lack nutrition, we suffer.
Written in response to https://ronovanwrites.com/2024/05/29/ovi-poetry-challenge-50-food-is-your-inspiration/
Motivational quotes, they can be quite inspiring, right? Someone who comes across it may need to see it at just the right time. I know I have came upon many motivational quotes, phrases, poems, and statements throughout my life time.
I have also came up with my own motivational quotes that have surprisingly shocked me to my core and gave me goose bumps.
So, with that said, I’ll get on with what motivational quote I came up with yesterday.
Yesterday, my husband and I were on our way to the courthouse to renew our tags and I saw two trucks that I liked. So, I say to my husband “Those are nice trucks.”
(By the way, in case you all don’t know, I love trucks!)
Anyways, my husband then goes on to say, “I want a truck so bad.” I then say, “if you ever do get a truck, we outta take it out to go mudding and do 360’s in the mud, that would be so much fun!” 🤩
My husband’s response: “If I ever do get a truck, I’m not going to tear it up by going out mudding.”
My response: 🤦♀️ “Yeah but, trucks are built to handle that type of thing.”
-“You gotta live a little.”
I then say to my husband – YOLO!!
For those who haven’t heard the term: (YOLO)
YOLO – You Only Live Once
Then……..I say, (This is where I came up with my own motivational quote.)
If you can’t live while you are alive, then you aren’t living. – Jenny Frye
Read that again…
In life, we all need and thrive on fun! We are built for speed. We all long for change. We love living on the edge. There is so much more to life than paying bills, living a mundane life, worrying about things that are beyond our control.
We all need to get away, we all need a break from time to time. It’s in our nature.
It’s okay to have fun. It’s okay to live a little. There is so much more out there to enjoy and explore.
If you are just living from day to day in the same boring routine and you find yourself feeling like you are in a twilight zone or some sort of paradox, that’s when you know,
it’s time to get away. It’s time to surround yourself with a change of scenery!
GET OUT THERE AND LIVE A LITTLE!!!
Our problems and life’s adversities are only temporary. Not everyday will bring the same amount of pain and or darkness. There is light on the other side if we strive to reach hard enough for it. By: Jenny Frye
Copyright ©️ by: Jenny Frye. All rights reserved.
Aunt Becky, a firecracker in every way,
With her wise cracks and southern charm on display,
She lit up the room with her infectious grin,
Her laughter echoing like a joyful hymn.
She had a sparkle in her eyes, full of mischief,
Always ready with a joke or a funny story,
Aunt Becky was a force to be reckoned with.
Her spirit bright and her love never to be missed.
Despite her cancer, she was a pillar of strength,
Leading us through the darkest of nights,
With her wisdom and grace, she showed us the way,
To live life to the fullest, to always stand tall and fight.
Aunt Becky, we all miss you more than words can say,
But your memory will live on in our hearts everyday,
You were quite the firecracker, a true southern gem,
Forever in our hearts, an Aunt Becky and a friend.
Written in response to https://thesoundofonehandtyping.com/2024/05/28/writers-workshop-prompts-for-may-30-2024/
(I’m a little late posting this but here is my attempt.)
In life’s chaos, we often forget to pause,
To breathe in deeply and appreciate all that’s ours.
The beauty in a sunrise, the whisper of the breeze,
These moments of stillness brings us to our knees.
Pause and listen to the laughter of a child,
Or the gentle rustle of leaves in the wild.
In these quiet moments, we find peace.
Written in response to Weekend Writing Prompt #365 – Pause
On my drive back from picking my daughter up from drivers Ed, I had to stop off to take a pic of this beautiful art work. I’ve passed it many times and have been wanting to take a picture of it. How can you not. It’s stunning artwork. I love anything art.
Not only that but I couldn’t resist petting the horses in the field. I LOVE HORSES!! 🐴
Art display, for all to see,
A creative piece, so serene.
Picture perfect, a tranquil view,
painted a cheerful blue.
Exquisite art, a delicate piece,
Carefully crafted,
viewed from the streets.
A pristine piece, enchanted.
Does anyone know why these horses in the pictures have to have guards over their face?
“Keep your face to the sunshine and you cannot see the shadows. It’s what sunflowers do.”
This quote is by Helen Keller. It suggests that by focusing on the positives, one can emerge from difficult situations by avoiding or distracting their focus from the negatives.
Source: https://thursd.com/articles/most-used-sunflower-quotes
Wordless Wednesday is a simple blog post featuring a photo that conveys a message that speaks for itself without using words.
Kansas sunflowers meadow,
sweet serenity.
Awaken your senses,
Peace blankets worries.
Summery smiling, warming winters chill away,
Birds soaking in summers warmth.
Flowers awaken, a rebirth begins.
Heartland Echoes 